My Dearest

the most unanticipated moment of weekdays

2012-02-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

on 6.30am to 7.00am
figure it out yourself.

I now find out that the world is in shadow. I judge wrongly.
well, too bad.

i like wasting time now

2012-02-17T22:13:00.001+08:00

reflecting on what happened yesterday (refer to previous post), IT WAS NOT A BIG DEAL.
ya, thats right. because it is in PAST TENSE.

so time faster flow la.

i am still stressed out btw

ehem...

2012-02-16T18:43:00.001+08:00

the THING ruined my mood for this morning, for I thought that today will be OK.
but, unfortunately, things didn't turn out as i thought it will be.
GREAT.

after more than an hour sitting in my car on the way to chong hwa.
I chilled.
GREAT.

cooled my head and started my battle again.
but in the process invoke many other problems.
head spinning.
GREAT

sometimes I felt like quitting,
but my determination stopped me.
GREAT

today my friend squeezed me so hard I almost throw up. (literally, of course)

i hope there will some exchange for causing me so much pain and misery.
苦尽甘来？OR 甘尽苦来？

Decided on my oral topic
dream stealer ehehehehehehehehe
hope I don't screw up (because I did, everytime)

someone save me.

Coming through...

2012-02-11T17:42:00.002+08:00

无奈
I wonder when this will end.

Now, my most anticipated moment of the day is to sit on a chair and listen my music.
and imagining my MV (don't laugh)

解脱 Or 崩溃

2012-02-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

your are worrying about things that haven't happen yet. If so, you got tonnes of thing to worry about. Nice, so the horoscope is accurate after all. Ya, thats right i am worrying too much about the future and i am bored with my so called jobs. Stress plus bored equals to no productivity but i am still doing. I may bend but not break. (nice quote). U may wonder why i didnt space my blog today. Well, that is because my phone wont allow me to do so. Which is not my style to do such a loong paragraph. School is ordinary. How would i wish to have alife like those in the mangas. Ohoho. In my dreams.

too bad he might be a flower

2012-02-10T19:00:00.002+08:00

"can we gossip?"
and so we did, from there to here and everywhere.

imagining my self-make MV when I'm listening to a song.
Guilty Crown ost nice ehehehehehe.

Teacher said dating during teens are the BEST (that is what she say)
I wonder....

an anime said there is a Void that takes a form according to ones heart.
I wonder what is my Void. (an ice-cream, coz I like ice-cream)

Workaholic is the keyword for me recently.

someone rush me to update my blog, so i did.

i hope my concept works.

how does infinity look like?

when is the next holiday?

I wonder 2012 is true.
If it is, what will I do?

Bios is life in Greek.

Finally,
is this long enough? My dear enemy aka underground friend

watashi wasabi (C) RabbitO!

bah bah

2012-01-27T10:41:00.001+08:00

finally get my hands on Guilty Crown Ost

PROBLEMS?

2012-01-21T17:28:00.000+08:00

having problems with mu judgmental skills?
if not, then don't give that oh-u-can't-do-it look

stop giving me orders
unless u give me money

When we faced each other, we did nothing but fighting
Yet those were good memories, too

You taught me that, so I’m not scared anymore
No matter how fettered I am, I can seize happiness, so-

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go on, even if it’s tough
I’ll definitely take along the dream I had with you
I’m glad to have been with you, not anyone else
But on the morning when I wake up, you’re not there

I felt like we’d be able to play forever
I know I only felt so
I no longer regret that I was born
It’s like after a festival; it’s lonely, but let’s get going shortly

I’ll go everywhere, that’s what I learned here
I’ll show you I’ll fulfill the dream known as happiness
Even if I’m separated from you, no matter how far apart we are
I’ll live in a brand-new morning

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go on, even if I want to die
I can hear your voice, saying, “You mustn’t die”
Even if it’s tough, even if I cry in loneliness
Deep in my heart, I feel warmth

Cycling and flowing, the times change
I can’t recall what happened anymore
But if I try closing my eyes, there’s someone’s laughter
Somehow that’s my most precious treasure now

i think toomuch

2012-01-15T12:37:00.000+08:00

doing my homework,
my pen is on history but my mind is elsewhere
everywhere.

我败给了。。。外表？

2012-01-13T20:41:00.001+08:00

ohohoho.
another week done.
work is still accumulating.

someone called me stupid for blindly following others orders
ho, I know I am stupid
don't know how to reject others.

Nevermind, if it is desperate, I am sure I can reject under pressure.

the song 三寸天堂
第一句
停在这里不敢走下去
fits my current condition.
but I am still walking.

我是打不死的蟑螂.

Ichi

2012-01-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

first week.
digging on front covers, index, biodata, divider.
went to the bookstore and continue digging in reference books
saw one novel, GRAB

went home, digging on presentation
headache

still got NILAM, still got food sale to plan
still got... still got...
i got a long way to still got...
如果低声下气可以使我们合作愉快，why not?

start!

2012-01-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

Can't focus. My body is still puzzled about what to do.
I'm trembling. I can't stop even if I try to control myself.
Although neither the sun nor the moon are on my side,
"I've no choice but to try," Those were the words I muttered to myself.

The odds aren't on my side,but running away'd be gutless.
Even if I can't see the future, I'll just have to win it over with courage.

All that's needed for victory is the pride to win.

There are two outcomers in everything. I want to control destiny.

2012
little sister trembled when knowing today is 2012. she thought there would be disasters
and my mum throw a tantrum boom at the start of the year
my another sister started picking up where she left in her books
I received countless new year sms-s and one sms asking me to reconsider (?)
did not reply, though

now watch me scribbling

2011-12-31T17:36:00.000+08:00

last day of the year, eh?

Bird ie

2011-12-30T15:58:00.002+08:00

My Dearest 1

2011-12-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

ok, after abandoning my blog for the 4th time. I'm back

"So everything that makes me whole...."
kept on clicking on the replaying button.
nice song. :>

so holiday is ending and my restlessness is back.
"mummy, remember to call me early"
kept on saying the same thing over and over again
ok, i am scared of ending and beginnings. satisfied?
but without starting, I won't get my "middle" which I am really fond of.
guess things must start and end
hope I can be in the middle without ending

[I don't want to talk about both of u, makes me sick and guilty and restless and worry and troubled when I think of both of you]

My sister is surely taking her time reading my books. to think that i am the one who bought it, but I am not the one who is reading it FIRST.

Initial Impulse

2011-11-22T17:49:00.001+08:00

Staring at the window
Me 发现现世静好，岁月安稳。一切都还充满希望

I can't believe I lost to my sister, in chess
grrrr.

摸索

2011-11-17T13:11:00.001+08:00

sister got 6A's for UPSR
cheers, though it is not straight A's.
:>
nevermind, just a UPSR

Holiday, though it may not seem so

2011-11-15T16:33:00.001+08:00

I am skipping class party, I know I gonna miss the fun, well.
I (we) almost finish stock checking, with half of my life drained off
I abandoned this blog for a loong time
one more day I am off to holiday, though it started later than my friends

eins zwei drei

2011-11-10T16:23:00.001+08:00

I don't mind being scolded on the very first hour I stepped into my school

(actually I mind)

I don't mind unable to accomplish my task although I know I will be scolded

(I MIND, things, well just does not go well)

I don't mind I have to carry the books all by myself

(I'm just lonely)

跟

2011-11-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

我跟你的一样
你跟我的一样
字数一样，词汇一样
含义？不一样

前者的“我”服从，表示是我跟着你，有点拍马屁的感觉
后者的“我”炫耀，是你跟着我。
今天不经意说出后者，换来是“你”的阴暗眼神。。。。

______
Today I undergo some self torture sessions, by applying unnecessary stress on myself.
self torture hehe

U & CLoud
Ao no Exorcist OST - 03 Exorcist Concerto Third Movement

A day When Nothing Happens

2011-11-08T12:59:00.001+08:00

computer piano tv piano computer

wow, in order.

Bored to death.

and I started scribble my birthday present.

晃

libarium

2011-11-04T15:58:00.002+08:00

hungry, stuck in a house with a nagging sister (u) and and and and getting crazy
stuck with jobs and so called "nothing-to-do' mood.
Heard "If I die Young" for like 5th times in a day
I am dying~
it's the curse

social relationship sometimes is very hard to handle
You have to deal with different types of people and to get them into doing what you want
I only meet two people who are capable of doing such a thing
haiz, I am not one of them
Never mind, I'll learn someday

sometimes I think i am a job maniac
when i am into something, I do it until I'm done
this often cause me doing the wrong thing or unnecessary jobs
waste of time

when i am writing so much today?
probably I am quite out of the world because my nagging sister is reading while I am typing
I seriously got nothing to do.
help~

why is the title "libarium" anyway?
never mind, random makes my day

(c) Rebec 2011

bliss? X

2011-11-03T19:28:00.001+08:00

Born into the world, each enjoying his own life, discovering the black box in his head...is this bliss?The important thing is to surpass your limit line. Shall we go? Take your step, and outdo yourself today!

But what should we do with our days? Trying to live flawlessly is a big no no.Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

Zoo is fun at the beginning. But I am starting to get moody at part 2.
i like animals. :3
add one more career into my wishlist
zoologist.
see how it is done in the future

011111

2011-11-01T18:12:00.001+08:00

Coming, not coming, coming, ~~not coming~~
argh
plucking flowering determining my lunch arrival
after some painstaking 2 hours, it arrived. Yeah boo ish omg gosh wat! (everything came out)
the so called "pizza delivery expert"
indah khabar dari rupa

I have to ask:"What is wrong with you"
like a ball that roll down to the hill and never come back
just because gravity asks you to do so
haiz, nevermind.
I will accompany the other ball.

alone

2011-10-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

the fact that you are alone and not knowing whether someone is watching you is terrible.
I confined myself out of the world, or the world confined me?
seems like people all got stuff to attend during their holiday.

looooong

2011-10-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

I have abandoned this blog. for a looooong time
and my friend closed her blog
great.

appointed as a PR suddenly
meh, I don't want responsibility
every now and then I think of escaping the burden I am about to carry (by switching school)
but come to think of it, switching school will bring more headache compared to my comfort zone
ehhh, let me think about it

seems like I have been shut up from my school world for a loooong time.
lots of stuff to do. (actually only got one)
I missed a lot, but I learnt one during my sudden leave

seriously, where are my friends, all gone from the world?

珍惜

2011-10-23T13:02:00.000+08:00

哭了几天，该停了

Gear

2011-10-20T14:52:00.000+08:00

do u have stable emotion?

2011-10-18T18:52:00.001+08:00

[blog post for today: {title}]

farewell

2011-10-17T17:36:00.001+08:00

finding poems to be inserted as a souvenirs for the seniors

then, i drew that.

i am hungry.

and I haven't meet hui ying for one whole day. aiyoyo

ding dong, that rings a bell

2011-10-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

beh song

2011-10-15T13:51:00.002+08:00

the weather is hot

the ceremony is boring

everyone is talking

and the fan is not blowing.

ish.

worst

wearing long sleeves

but not allowed to be folded up

walking alone

nearly tripped but no one is looking

as I felt relieved

I saw my friend's car zooming by

ops,

I hope they didn't see it

thought today can turn her house upside down

but my mum have no idea how to go there

fine, I surrender to fate

and

everyone is an eye sore to me today

TODAY.

Theme of SSS

2011-10-14T17:48:00.003+08:00

pupura

2011-10-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

Someday... (Itsuka~)

I will not be alone anymore

- Brave Song, Aoi Tada

I realized I heard it

I realized I felt it

-My Soul, Your Beats!, Lia

Living my life, is confronting my life

If I understand it, then after that, I only need courage to step forward

-My Most Precious Treasure (Ichiban no Takaramono), Karuta

I won't walk back the way I walked on, even if it's got bad things, I'll move forward

Brightening the things I touch, I'll show you I exist like that

-Alchemy, Girls Dead Monster

Thank you to the miracle that we were able to meet in an ugly, dirty world like this

-My Song, Iwasawa

I'll sing of luck

-Crow Song, Iwasawa

I don't want to lose anything

I don't want to defile anything

But that's not going to take me anywhere!

-Yakusoku, Suga Shikao

2011-10-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

infinitely

2011-10-12T18:18:00.002+08:00

I hereby announced that i am no contribution to the society until I find a new ~~smallpurpose~~ in life.

I mean small, I already got one BIG purpose in life, and a few more sub-purpose to keep me going

science? arts? I think the answer is pretty obvious in me. unwavering, unchanging and constantly

(:>)

2011-10-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

专门欺负他人者

2011-10-11T18:24:00.002+08:00

帮我拿水壶来。递给他

拿着苦笑, 外加三条黑线

帮我买面包装傻

oi 装傻

人若（一定有）有面具, 我太会装了

私

2011-10-11T18:07:00.002+08:00

To admirer

this blog is not dead and I am not dying

To Hui Ying

U better return me my book

To PMR

thank god you're done

To books

I am going to strangle you

It may be a frustrating this morning but not this afternoon. U finally get to taste your long lost McD and stare out to space and come back to Earth.

even the Universe has its limits

2011-09-20T18:39:00.002+08:00

I am being bombarded by lots of comments today.

from asking me to bring a new bag to school to you are avoiding me all these kind of stuff

worst of all, all from a single organism

but my mouth stay put, I need not anymore comments.

再浩瀚的宇宙也有它的极限，何况我这个小不点？

I am ready

mental breakdown

2011-09-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

looking at my timetable, scheduled a week before a week before PMR. (wah, paradox, is it?)

stress piled up, and fall down (I got self-control), piled up (ops, lost control) then fall down (regain control).

the best recipe for a mental disorder...

i am so busy (was I?) that I cannot practice my songs, finger aching from playing just now and I can't type properly now. GREAT.

儿童的轮游曲，my teacher taught me 4 bars only. fine, it is going to take some time.

yeah, I went back early today unlike last week :D

Lost 50

2011-09-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

I lost money today. :<

Heaven is a place on Earth

2011-09-15T16:23:00.002+08:00

精霊琥珀 seirei kohaku

been listening to this song for a whole day

so the poo had finished her UPSR and I am still stuck with my PMR. sigh

18 days, and my stress is plied up.

feel like yelling all the way to the end of Universe

滥用成语一

2011-09-14T18:22:00.003+08:00

滴水石穿

在石头上刻画出永不磨灭的序章

flexible

2011-09-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

ignorance

woots

2011-09-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

again, I was angry because I had to wait in my school until 5 for my mum to come.

tip tip tap tap, knocking on the hollow pole.

all my friends were gone now.

then she came, grateful grateful

kept on switching radios for songs, but NO SONGS. ==

God is playing with me today. I messed up my daily routine.

始まりの日

記憶の光

2011-09-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

like to use Japanese to name my title lately.

again, I am bloody stressed out today.

kept doing exercises but still felt that I didn't do enough.

(:<)

強く

2011-09-09T18:35:00.002+08:00

heard some comments saying I am moody today, actually I am stressed.

from? my perfectionist to get everything done as soon as possible.

I am not mentally strong enough to withstand mental pressure.

bad things will be over, eventually. What we can do is to confront them and not standing there waiting them to engulf and overthrown you.

but, I am still moody / stressed

my friends complimented my pineapple mouse today 'blush blush' :D

tripped over, again today and being laughed, again today.

人生 jinsei in Japanese atarashi jinsei, I kind of like that word.

強くtsuyoku, be stronger

忘记的，就代表它不曾存在过吗？

2011-09-08T17:14:00.002+08:00

[today no picture]

after some frantic headaches and frustration, some wires. I finally completed my pineapple mouse.

Ya, pineapple instead of banana. :D

come to think of it, PMR is baring his fang towards me.

sigh, but I think my long-term study investment can cope with it.

I tripped thrice today, grinned stupidly today and get to know my stranger friend a lot more. :D

08092011

All I want, is more BOOKS

2011-09-04T19:13:00.003+08:00

oo, colour psychology *grab*

OO, novels *grab frantically while my sister make a big O*

AHHHHH, the psychology book sold out already *walking around finding the book*

help me carry these *gave her my stacks of books then rushing to find more*

fruitful day...

I got lots of book to kill after my PMR.

ahhem

2011-09-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

去不去去不去不去去去——去X啦！！！！！！！！！！！！

说去又不去，不去咯。最多换件衣服罢了。

still, I am holding myself back from beating someone up

dash

2011-09-02T16:56:00.003+08:00

“上天似乎很喜欢给我机会，同时也享受夺取它的乐趣。。。”

假期太闲，不断回顾着我的过去，结果作出以上定论

本以为可以好好发挥自己所谓的“才华”，但。。。（无言）

看来，我必须给予还击，不放走属于我的。

握紧紧哦

游啊游，那~的远方

free style

2011-09-01T15:55:00.002+08:00

collecting pieces of (___________)?

don't grief, the world will still be like this if you do so.

so, all we can do is change and evolve:D

I'm in between the lines

2011-09-01T13:05:00.001+08:00

在人海中奔跑，没人发现。。。

我真的隐形了吗？

Sunflower's shadow

2011-08-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

2011-08-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

there is is always 2 sides in 1 event

哇牙牙

2011-08-29T20:38:00.004+08:00

passed by the Korean embassy today, which reminded me of a conversation:

“韩国大使馆好有韩国风味啊！”

结果，我收到了N次白眼。

呵呵，我是否太记仇了？

I'm just impressed by the embassy for keeping their culture although in a different country

bought Lolita today, with much consideration.

hang out with friends today and just realised that my country actually have one subway. WOAH

Picture time :D

watched about "Deadliest Snakes" yesterday at National Geographic, I always had a fancy towards snakes. Why God create such simple (just a line) creature?

Btw, the mouse is me. The one who is unaware of her surrounding. :D

闲

2011-08-28T13:45:00.003+08:00

Imma going to book fair no matter what, the thing is, she won't let me. ahhhhhhhhh

Today so boring got nothing to do, no lessons, no tv program....

watched nodame cantabile today, but until half of the series she, again, switched off the tv.

ding ding dong dong, my drawing of a hand so retarded

Miyamoto Emiri x Solita - Tokyo et Paris [PV]

2011-08-28T10:28:00.000+08:00

Train

2011-08-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

brace yourself, you are riding the ~ of your life

笑顔

2011-08-26T16:05:00.003+08:00

今天从早到晚都在被人炸，尽管它有心无意，窟窿已在。

the emcee thing is OK.

笑~

无论如何，一个人借故堕落是不可原谅的，即使他人已不再珍惜你，至少还有自己。自己爱自己

realisation

2011-08-25T17:50:00.002+08:00

I just realize that I haven't post a blogpost properly nowadays.

yea~yea~yea~

surprising tomorrow I got exam, actually is official practice but still, still got people make a fuss over it.

what is more interesting?

someone actually is comforting someone but then it turns out that the person is also very nervous about the so call "latihansecararasmi"

I think I wrote this, but I gonna write this again

"I am amazed by your capability to act differently in front of different people"

btw, to my future self, if u ever forget, u actually get a post as a HOD NILAM when you're in your school life. fuyoh fuyoh

摇摇遥，摇到那遥远

2011-08-25T17:03:00.001+08:00

· 少年的时光就是晃，用大把时间彷徨，只用几个瞬间来成长。

Tracing YOUR FOOTSTEPS, WHEN I LOOK UP, I REALISED THAT I CAN WALK ON MY OWN WITHOUT YOU. :D

用

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2011-08-24T16:35:00.001+08:00

干！！！

汗~

yea yea yea

2011-08-23T16:45:00.002+08:00

True Blue Clue

2011-08-23T16:15:00.001+08:00

I am one hell of a person...

starting to reflect myself more often than my usual state.

felt like skipping school tomorrow, but still, struggling.

You cannot underestimate my "blurness"

2011-08-22T17:03:00.003+08:00

FUN FACTS ABOUT ME

#1 when you whisper or mouth something to me, there is a 99.99% that I don't understand what are you trying to say. If I nod, it's just a fake sign. :)

#2 this person likes horoscopes and physiology plus psychology

#3 she don't know how to wrap books and presents

#4 she is stingy and blur, the blurriest of all

#5 she don't know how to comfort peopl

e so she tends to keep cool when someone needs comforting, she scares she make things worse.

#6 unless the blog post is really interesting, if not, she will just scan it and end of story

#7 she is a passive person, don't expect me to come to you because I'm expecting you

#8 she is naive and very hard-headed, mentally

#9 she is clumsy and cannot speak other language properly, her tongue will twist upon saying it

#10 she sings when she is in her study room.

run bun cun

2011-08-21T13:10:00.002+08:00

felt like skipping AGM.

I don't want to wear full-u, be the emcee and so on.

but,

I skipped so many events already.

fine, I'll bear with it this time

Ceremonial oh lala

2011-08-20T13:18:00.002+08:00

"student, don't stick the sticker here."

my scorpio instinct immediately jotted down her name in my "I-will-remember-you-list".

see, I'm so vengeful and so kecil hati.

Today is quite boring. except the fact that I won RM70 which will be spent by my family 5 seconds after I finish typing this post.

I am so hungry and dizzy after playing angry bird in the car....

spectacles eyed fish

2011-08-19T18:09:00.002+08:00

I am, in hiding....

who is the big big fish blowing bubbles in the water? XD

Geography challenge

2011-08-19T14:54:00.004+08:00

no classes conducted today.

so the twin took out a book and asked us some geography challenge, mainly about China.

and thanks to National Geographic I managed to find out some of the questions correctly.

The others, well we just go for it with our don't-know-accurate or not intuition.

The way the twin spoke was very funny, full of entertainment and laughter. :D

To gain means to lose something of equal value. and time is the most precious thing that we can spend.

SESAT

2011-08-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

i'm

awesome~

等值交换。

2011-08-17T17:50:00.002+08:00

sometimes, I think... everything has their price

you pay when you buy something

you study hard (smart) in order to get good results

to obtain something of equal value must be lost, mankind will not gain without giving equally, those who do not give equally the first time will then be punished by losing something of heavy unequal value.

so i think, I sort of give away my TUT for my TUT.

never mind, at least I have tried.

哀悼。

2011-08-17T17:34:00.004+08:00

"...." my jaw clenched at the sight of those English papers.

Great, time to accept facts.

After some knocking with the calculator, I have to at least get 36 for my essay writing and the chances are 50 50 for me to get one.

When I read my paper, my heart literally just drop off from Mount Everest, to the deepest Mariana Trench. I got 29, still, after knocking the calculator, my English is 72.

Again, the light in my eyes fade, and my eyes felt hot, I hid in my arms, still swallowing facts.

distant sound of my friends cheering... I am sort of like a crow among doves.

如果你有了心理准备，为什么还期待？因为你还有那么一丁点希望

Ok, I cried. And I thanked my friends for not trying to comfort me. (not sure whether are they intentionally not to do so or they just simply forgot about me)

I cried, as I mourned my failure. With my back facing the grave, I will create success. :D

why am i here

2011-08-16T16:28:00.002+08:00

I am at the tip of my....... anger.

so it was 4.00pm and I am still stuck in my school, waiting mama to fetch me.

rustling wind, kind of made me feel cold.

(gosh, I never felt this cold before, perhaps its my eagerness to go home.)

i feel so stupid sitting there.

then, she came. what a relief.

because I cannot reach the Sky, I will have to imagine that I am in ONE.

尽管不是事事都如意。。。

2011-08-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

although sometimes things did not go as well as I thought

but at least I tried to make it happened before

I learnt from it and know my experience

I enjoyed it happily

don't let trivial events like this make you fall apart and crumble into dust

take it as a little conflict in your chapter of life.

that it will never come again is what makes life so sweet

follow the beat...

2011-08-15T17:28:00.002+08:00

listening to a very strong beat song.

ahhh, the bass, the drum, the background singer, and the invincible violin. :D

it's like going through a roller coaster full of beats and singing and the high pitch Ed violin.

I'm obsessed with Nodame Cantabile now. ahhh. the concerto

so after my friends went back, I'm alone.

huge gush of wind slap against my face, with hair flying all over the place and the tie surfing with the windy wind.

distant shower of rain and the rapid beating of raindrops against the zinc-coated rooftop.

ya, it is all about the beat today. the beat of life.

莫名其妙

2011-08-14T10:41:00.002+08:00

看到给yuyuan莫名其妙的评语, I realized that she had had a tough life.

Yu Yuan, 在他们面前，要笑得开开心心，不要让这个世界遮盖了你的笑容，而是把你的笑容带给全世界。smile :D

and to 'to someone'

不错嘛，平日看到你对yu yuan的（不知道如何形容的话），有你这个会滥用词语的朋友，不错不错。

[今日一章完]

Hakuna Matata [no worries]

2011-08-13T11:33:00.002+08:00

it's funny listening to this song while I was in 2011 reliving my childhood.

"Hakuna Matata, what a wonderful phrase!"

now I really hakuna matata, except that my hands are aching with pain after writing all the quotes. and my poo is filled with rage after doing all the (top-secret and confidential) stuff.

exam is over so hakuna matata.

PMR is still here, but even so. hakuna matata

"It's our problem free.... philosophy.... hakuna matata~"

stars

2011-08-12T18:05:00.001+08:00

im so useless. i don know how to fold a star, nor can I expand it into one.

thats where my sister came in.

o i love you my poo

random thoughts

2011-08-11T17:06:00.003+08:00

去你的歪理，不要为我灌入负面思想。

p/s:not you :)

the afternoon is so quiet. teasing the poo by pouring water on her butt.

the calm before the next hurricane.. brace yourself

Perfect Gift

2011-08-10T16:25:00.002+08:00

ok, so the exam is 90% gone and my friends birthday is coming up :D

i didn't give them presents for the past two years, because my principle is:

if you do not know that person well, so be it.

and now i know them well enough (but still, not very enough), i knew what to give them already.

hope they will like it though....

to be the brightest star in the sky.

gather your strength in silence.

不知道

2011-08-09T16:12:00.002+08:00

我必须承认，我没这个胆去说“不知道”，却有这个胆去说“我知道”，即使话题是一些我不太熟悉的。

我照说：

“我知道”

结果，打肿脸皮充胖子，揭穿了就装傻。尴尬一笑带过，往后转身吐吐舌头。呵呵

想起那些尴尬时候，的确，蛮傻的。

人生十大理论之一：要勇敢地说“不知道”

ding dong

2011-08-08T16:35:00.001+08:00

when all seems to fail, please believe that the world is just planning a surprise attack for you.

mentality

2011-08-07T11:40:00.001+08:00

how high is ur mentality?

就好

2011-08-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

人生无须惊天动地，快乐就好；

友谊无须甜言蜜语，想着就好；

金钱无须车载斗量，够用就好；

朋友无须遍及天下，有你就好。

有烦恼才知道什么是快乐，

有痛苦才懂得什么是幸福，

有失才能有所得，

该珍惜的好好去珍惜，

该放弃的毅然放弃掉，

既然痛苦无法避免，

就让我们笑对人生吧。

我没那么多观众，做好自己就好

我没那么多朋友，倾心就好

既然我那么多“就好”

那就好

2011-08-05T14:07:00.001+08:00

realizing that..... i have been blogging for 50 days straight

what a record .o.

i should have cut down on surfing the net, later i got addiction.

someone chase me away when you see me online

week end

2011-08-05T13:51:00.002+08:00

Maths have gotten the better of me.

careless mistakes, yeap.

but at least I get an A

btw, I didn't see my Hui ying today.

where is she ah? fasting until gone jor.

YING YING, where are youuuuuuu?

Wooh, finally its weekend.

I skipped the "wash shoes" part. i will miss my scrubbing, same goes with my shoes. :D

next week will be the main course, so study looooooooo

coin tossing

2011-08-04T16:13:00.005+08:00

when faced with two choices, simply toss a coin

it works not because it settles things for you

but because in that brief moment when the coin is in the air

you suddenly know what are you hoping for(?)

2011-08-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

逆风飞翔，不怕万人阻挡，只怕自己投降！

说白了就是不爽你

2011-08-02T15:51:00.002+08:00

情绪瓦解时就是反击你的最佳时刻。

前提：“你” 是我。

我很不愉快啊！！

Nostalgia

2011-08-01T17:06:00.002+08:00

just reviewed all my blogposts today.

and, i kind of regret it now. for deleting all the previous posts.

the part which shown the "original" side of me. the very very very extremely original part of me.

i should have kept a soft copy or what.

but there is no regretting, is there? what done is done, you can't undo it back

but, i'm regretting.

nevermind, live at the present

胡扯

2011-08-01T16:41:00.003+08:00

《暴风前的宁静》

朋友们分享周末趣事，唯我独自在旁聆听。

看着朋友扮着我平时的傻脸，忽然发觉我真的很傻，当然不是真傻。

马来同胞禁食，嘴里的水对他们来说可是奢侈。

回家时没跟朋友说再见，潜意识我不想看到他们。

独步走出去，叶子沙沙响。潇洒啊。

原想把这篇名为长篇大论，浑然发觉我是个长话短说的人。

真是废话

对视着你的眼，微笑，沉默。

有些事可以不做解释，他不需要，你？没必要

allow me

2011-07-31T12:53:00.002+08:00

if i'm not mistaken (I'm definitely not mistaken), trial is next week.

so instead of an exercise book, i got a tendency for facebook.

great.

seeing no one online makes me really stress, scared, stupid (just name it)

but i got self control OK.

I should have bring more cash, money, $$$$

2011-07-30T12:12:00.002+08:00

"Ok, Maths, BM, Geo and Sejarah. I'm done." Books piling up on my hands, as well as my annoying 1st class sister. The poo.

Then, we came to a halt in front of the Chinese novels.

"NEW BOOK ARGHH!"

"THE LEGEND OF SUNKNIGHT TWO AHHHHHHHH"

stare at the exercises, look at the novels.

exercises 34 bucks, the novels 28 bucks. we got 50 bucks

I SHOULD HAVE GET MORE FROM MY MUM'S WALLET!!!

grrr, never mind, after exam. The POO and me will storm the book store and get MORE BOOKS.

means getting MORE CASH. hehehe

就如我所说-别阻碍世界发展

2011-07-29T17:12:00.002+08:00

我这颗发光发热的星星，正要探索这个浩瀚的宇宙。

天知，唯有我这个星星不知。

半路杀了个程咬金。

热气轰不死他，无奈尽写在脸上。

总有一天，我会熏扁他的

我这个星星蛮恶毒的。

one octave higher

2011-07-29T14:55:00.002+08:00

apparently, I am very self disciplined. that is what my mum said.

she said i'm automatically went for bath, do my homework, go to sleep without yelling and so on.

On the other hand, my sisters are a totally different creature.

they are waken up by me, yell by me to go bath, yell at them to revise and go to sleep reluctantly, along with my shouting, as always.

they said the eldest is always the most steady one, the middles just do what they want and apparently the youngest just cry for what they want.

I pitied the eldest one, which is myself all my life.

bounded by responsibilities towards her sister S

so when can i reach the one octave higher key - responsible free life? my fingers are too short for God's sake.

the unchanging world

2011-07-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

so today is just like any other day.

ya, like any other "day".

what makes my day a "day" then?

laughter? pessimistic? quiet? oblivious? optimistic? or all of it?

I myself also don't know.

there is no definite answer to anything, because everyone has their own translation for anything.

want the truth for one certain occasion, you have to ask everyone who participated in it to tell you.

and i bet you will get different answers.

because different people, have changing perspective towards the incident and towards you.

its not the same for everyone, that is theunchangingthing in this world.

JJ, for your sake, I wrote english

2011-07-27T16:31:00.002+08:00

"St.John members, stayback."

I bet my life there is nothing good with it.

"Those who didn't come for exam please go for re-exam this Sunday."

See (Whew, my life is saved)

And I was scolding all the way from the skylite to my class.

and so, I can't escape my fate, so let's take it as a challenge.

我会笑着，优雅地离开在添伤口的你。顺便抛个大笑脸

十二个字

2011-07-26T17:39:00.003+08:00

服了你。我认输。拜拜，先去读书。